Nothing to See Here (Thoughts After a Visit to the School Counselor)

It's all bullshit

didn't help me any,

and it depressed me more

it made me think again about suicide

if people would just leave me alone,

I think I'd be all right

but the attention makes it worse

don't give me this shit -

tell me what to do with my life -

it's not as bad as I make it sound

I get dramatic, sometimes!

Ignore me, please!

I don't want this attention!

I know you care, but I know what I need

let me drown myself in my troubles a while

let me breathe

Don't give me your truth!

I'll live by my own, thanks

don't get "concerned", to cheer me up

then tell me I'm a fuck-up

then give that look of sympathy

or earnestness

or some other shit

You'd think the whole world stopped

just to watch me suffer

move on!  move on!

my agony is just a drop in the ocean of the world's pain

me?  I'm crying for the world

And if one more person tells me

that I can't do what I want unless I fucking conform,

it'll be the final step off the ladder for me

You wonder why I'm down

when you're the cause

I get inspired - so inspired!

but someone always brings me down

Thank you, one and all!

you've stirred so much resentment and hatred in me

that now I have to prove to you I can do it my way

You little shits thought you had me

but you had me wrong

I'm not alone

I'm not dying

I just keep forgetting that I'M the one

who's supposed to be defeating YOU,

not the other way around

You almost had me taken

but I've come back just in time

time to look towards the future

and leave the fucking conformists behind.

- Dec. 19, 1983, A.D.