You Want Me to Call, but I'm Still Recovering from your Beautiful Gift of Kryptonite

Don't you see?

I had to do it

otherwise, you would have allowed yourself hope

but there's no hope for your dream

I would do almost anything for you

but I will not lie

that's how we got here

and that's how we've got to stay

I don't mean to forget

and you make me guilty with the strength

of your memory

you were not a drop in a bucket

but what, exactly, you were has escaped

from my feelings, now

It was too intense

there was too much pain

there came a point where I had to 

let it all go

and then, no matter how I tried, 

I couldn't bring it back

Don't you see?

everything I do seems beyond my control

I lost you

and I can't get you back

Even today, I would do anything not to hurt you

but there are some actions 

that I have to take

that will hurt

all I can say is I'm sorry

Don't let me bring you down

remember the good times -

hot summer days,

starry, clear nights -

they are some of the best memories I have

In a lot of ways, I'd love to go back to

that ideal history

I'd like to live in a world where people

can be so happy together

where everything is so good

But you see?

I've got no grasp on what is was, really

not any more

you want me to come back

but I don't know what to come back to

you want me to love again

but I don't remember what I was loving

A month later, and I hear you're back with her

you're getting nowhere

you'll never learn

but I can't hold it against you

because you feel there's only one other choice

and I can't provide you with that

So hold on

hold on to the memories

there is no other way

Our love was excellent in its time

but now we must move on. . .

- March 17, 1985, A.D.