Prince Charming #534

"10 days!" I thought,

"I have 10 days to be free from the obsessions."

What a foolish idea

It's day two,

and all I want to do is call him

It's the dreams again

they always remind me of those

that sanity begs me to forget

(at least for a while - please)

Prince Charming #534 appears in the vision

it's the last dream before I wake up

that makes it worse

For hours in bed, I contemplate, I fantasize

I keep hold of that feeling

He knows and will know none of this

unless he's done the same

Is that possible?

No (I guess)

I can't wait to get back

to see him

we'll try the hallway scene once more

I won't care if it works or not

as long as I can see him again

I want to say "this is it"

"this is the one that will work"

with no doubts

and no questions

I want to say that I'm sure

Oh, and I'm so close!                  (ha, ha)

Yes, but I am close

and I've got 8 days to hope that I'm right

8 days. . .

8 days is a lifetime!

One minute at a time, mein Freund. . .

What if I go through weeks more of this uncertainty?

What if I never know?

Is that better than laying everything on the line

to find out?

I'd say I hope the answer comes to me in a dream,

but I'm not sure I could handle another

8 days is the test

I could change my mind

this could be just another infatuation after all

I don't doubt the possibility

but I'm hoping. . .

If I'm right (god, I hope I'm right!)

then what's happening is

magical and wonderful

If I'm wrong, then I'll move on

(god, I hope I'm not wrong)

I swear he's the best one yet

well, the best one available, at least

and that's not bad

It would literally be a dream come true

if it happens right

8 days more to dwell on #534. . .

- March 31, 1985, A.D.